well i'm having mixed emotions about this whole moving to westport thing like i don't know if i really want to... i think that it will be really hard to like fit in or what not like i don't know who i will be freinds w/ or like who will like me and i'm really going to miss lauren and not having her around everyday will be soo weird like i can always talk top her and i love her stories and hearing about her life maybe that is sad but like still i'm really going to miss her but at the same time i'm very happy mom and dad get to live togther again like it's been so long and i knwo it's been really hard for them both but like still come on why deosn't anyone ask me ya ok i want them to be happy but like at the same time i'm still really confused about what i want you know like i really wanted to stay in westport in the begging of 8th grade but like now i don't and then i wanted to stay in fort worth when i was in tyler but now i don't and like i really want to stay in tyler but like that same time i really don't and i want to move here for a bunch of reasons.... like mom and dad, sam,theresa,umm ya thats like it though there really isn't anything else but like hello those are like some of the most important ppl in my life but like i really want to be with lauren like really bad but like she isn't really around but i'll feel bad you know like i know how she feels about ppl leaving her and like i just feel like mom and i or maybe just me are her two most stable things in her life and i like i just feel bad. but i am happy laura came back but i don't know and like everyone likes me at my school and i'm like realy popular and stuff. oh and like now that mom doesn't have a job like what are we going to do about money like now what ahhhhh this is so confuseing and like i feel like i made this happen b/c if it wasn't for me we would live here...i don't know and like i hate the whole image thing in westport like u have to have the perfect everything and like in texas you didn't and ppl actually like you for u not for the way you look and like i don't like westport b/c of that and i wish that it didn't mattedr as much as it does b/c now what am i going to wear and stuff and like i have to loose a lot of wieght and like thats really are for me you know and i don't know it's just weird thinking that i have to be here for ever .like it's not real or something... oh well i think that i will just have to deal with everythign thats going on and be ok with it and it will all work out the way it's suppose to hopefully

anyway hmmm i'm off

well i've been hanging out w/ MIMI all week (well mostly) and we have had fun fun fun and last night i chilled w/ kate! and i love her! so nothing really exccting has happened lately OH exccpet for the whole Lauren thing well hate when ppl are mad at eachother for no freaking reason! oh well ok well i'm off!

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